Our week long, amazing vacation on a Disney cruise has come to an end. It was the first for many experiences and definitely an unforgettable vacation. The boys traveled on their first airplane ride, met many of the Disney characters, swam for hours in the pool and ocean, chased characters around the ship, napped in places other than a bed (which is nearly unheard of for my children), tried many new foods, watched amazing shows and stayed up WAY past their bedtimes! It truly was an unforgettable escape from reality.
We enjoyed a week unplugged from our day to day lives and enjoyed EVERY single moment, smile and laugh on the cruise ship while we were on board and docked at different ports.
Now, as our vacation has come to an end the Sunday blues are in full effect, which this time they are much worse than after any other vacation. Tomorrow it’s not only back to the grind of our daily lives but I will be expected to arrive at the University of Pennsylvania hospital very early in the morning for surgery…again.
All of my other surgeries I was scared…a different kind of scared -the fear of unknowing/what to expect. This time I know a lot more, which at times can be a good thing to typically ease some anxiety, but this time knowing what’s coming is absolutely horrible. Every other surgery that I’ve had I have been told they THOUGHT the cancer was gone. Of course this time I hope to hear the same thing, BUT this time it is going to be much different depending on how much cancer is found and the formation of the cancer will determine the next treatment plan. I know I can handle surgery, I’ve done it many times before but after this, surgery may no longer be an option. The thought of radiation absolutely frightens me beyond belief. I try to block it out of my mind, but I can’t.
At this time, I can only hope….wish….dream….PRAY that the cancer found on the right side of my neck is minimal and formed in a way that surgery will be the cure. Tonight I plan on squeezing all of my children tight, especially Natalie since she did not go on the cruise with us, giving them a big kiss while they are sleeping in the morning when I leave for the hospital and continue hoping that the Magical Dreams from Disney follow me into surgery.
Tonight I’m going to continue wishing upon a star…
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thegladwinfive 
Jess, you are at the top of my prayer list tonite…From our lips to God’s ears may he will take extra good care of you!
When I read these blogs, I certainly sense the fear, but also can feel the strength in you! I am so glad that you had a wonderful week of smiles and laughter with your beautiful family to get you thru this next ordeal! Dreams, wishes and miracles do come true!!!
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Hello my darling, so lovely to hear you all had an amazing holiday. Hugs are definitely going to be in abundance for you all, especially Natalie Rose. I’m sure she was thoroughly spoilt whilst you were on holiday.
Believe the magic will follow you into hospital tomorrow morning, for it will. All our prayers have God’s ears. I hear your fear, of course, but I hear the fight and strength within you.
I liken you to a very special friend of mine, Jan, who like you, faced with a long challenge of beating cancer, I’m so heartened to say she has beaten it and I know you have the same strength and determination.
I’m hugging you right now and you’re in our thoughts and prayers.
Night night my darling, try and get as good a night’s sleep as you and Robbie can.
Lots of love Xxxx💕💕
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My dear Jess,
I have been praying all week that you all were having a magical time and tonight I am praying with all my heart that you will get nothing but good news from here on in. You will be in my thoughts and prayers!
Sending love with prayers,
Aunt Donna
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So happy you had a wonderful vacation and know that’s we are all praying for the best results this week. Love from both of us, Mark and Yveline
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Jessica,
You have such a beautiful family!!! You have always been a source of strength for all the students here at the high school. They have told me so!!! I’m sending prayers your way that you continue to stay strong and positive and kick cancer’s ass!!!
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