(Blog written 8/15/16 but apparently I forgot to post!  Forgeting has been the story of my life…)

Wow, I’m not quite sure where the time has gone and wish I would of blogged more during my time being treated at Johns Hopkins and since coming home, but I just did not have it in me.  I have many blogs that I started to write, but I would get distracted, get too tired or would just lose my thought that I ended up just deleting them.  My radiation oncologist told me this thought process is completely normal with the medications I am taking and losing my mind is actually a good sign because he knows the medication is working.  (I’m glad that’s a good sign for him because still to this day and every day during treatment I struggle with legitimately losing my mind and forgetting EVERYTHING!)

So here I am now…

HOME!  Exactly where I should be with my husband and three children.

I have completed 30 rounds of radiation.  It was one of the toughest experiences I have ever been through and I do not know if I would have been able to get through it without my amazing support team.  My mom and Natalie were with me at each treatment and Rob and the boys came to a few treatments as well.  I thought it was important for Bobby and Brody to see where I was going each day so they understood enough in their little minds why Mommy was away for such a long period of time.  But let’s be honest, each day I was in the waiting room Natalie stole the show.  I think this really helped me get through my treatments and I believe she was able to put a smile on many hospital guests and employees.  Previously I heard that the people in a radiology waiting room are very different than any other waiting room and I can attest that this is very accurate.   Each day I saw the same people and learned a lot about each person and their journey.  They will always have a close place in my heart and I will always be praying for them, on a first name basis.

Currently I still have a lot of help.  The radiation exhaustion is insane.  I thought it was going to be similar to the first trimester of being pregnant, so I thought…I got this!  No way!  I was sooo wrong!  I simply never feel rested regardless of the amount of sleep I get and then all of a sudden I hit a wall and cannot do anything.  My doctor said the radiation will be working in my body for about 3 weeks after my last day of treatment and then side effects will slowly go away.  I look forward to each day of slowly getting better and I want to be back to a normal routine.  I will get there some day.

To all of my frequent blog followers, I am sorry I didn’t do more posts during treatment but all of my effort and energy was focused on physically getting better.